I had a whole post in my head and half of it written down. I was spilling my guts on the things that are making me angry right now. It was dripping with self loathing, pettiness, jealousy, being the victim, and feigned self awareness.
I decided that although I want to share my life with those who read this, I do not know if I am truly ready for the fallout that would come of it. Letting everyone know your true thoughts isn’t always a clean way to do things.
I want those of you to know and care that I am in a grey place right now. It’s not quite a dark place, and it’s not a place of light. I am in between somewhere. I am working on getting out of it, but there is a lot of pent up anger and frustration, jealousy and self loathing, and down right laziness there that I have to fight. I was never one to work hard on things and that is burning me in life right now.
So now I have to buckle down and grow up. I have to stop looking to blame others for my faults. I have to choose to move forward to get what I want.
Let me tell you though, it’s really not as fun as it sounds…. :-/
#1 by Anonymous on July 9, 2007 11:45 am - 11:45 am
You are not alone R&R. There are many of us out there who feel the same. Don’t give up.
#2 by Shagz on July 9, 2007 4:57 pm - 4:57 pm
Kick me a call……..
#3 by Kaz on July 9, 2007 7:00 pm - 7:00 pm
Ah. Welcome to life young grasshopper
#4 by dubya dubya 3 on July 9, 2007 9:47 pm - 9:47 pm
welcome to your late-twenties crisis (not kidding, no sarcasm here)….it sucks but you will be better off when you’re through.