Anger – n – a strong feeling of displeasure and usually of antagonism
I have anger issues. I don’t believe that I have anger management issues, as I am able to NOT lash out at others and I do find ways to let my anger dissipate. I realize that time brings clarity and that if I need to I will step away from a situation that is causing anger to calm down. However I could be wrong about the terminology, and it might be management issues.
Nonetheless, what I do is carry the anger around with me to the point that I am always mad at something. Be it something specific or a perceived injustice. To the point that since entering into the working world I have gone from a fun loving ‘nice guy’ to a cynical bastard that finds humanity as some sort of cruel joke. I think to myself that if given the same choice as fictional bad guys (Darth Vader, Arthas Menethil, Sauron) I would make the same choices, but be A LOT meaner about them.
It has been pointed out to me that I am no longer ‘the person I was’ and that my anger is now more apparent than ever. I also notice and realize this, and I think that is a good thing. If I did not see my anger, then folks should be worried. As such, I am trying to take steps to remedy this. Nothing drastic, just a bit of self realization and finding a good ‘work/life’ balance to begin with. Perhaps some real effort into finding my passions in life and perhaps capitalizing on them.
We’ll see how it all goes.
#1 by The Wife on March 2, 2010 10:32 pm - 10:32 pm
Rome wasn’t built in a day, but it was built. And when it burned, it was rebuilt.
#2 by Rich on March 12, 2010 8:13 am - 8:13 am
You live in NYC. What did you expect?
To quote a great Austailian, “Incredible. Imagine seven million people all wanting to live together. Yeah, New York must be the friendliest place on Earth.”