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When it rains, it pours.
Fighting some sort of stomach bug while on the road, my father is in the ICU for shortness of breath and fluid in the lungs. I cannot focus on work, although I have things to do. I have to get on an airplane to get home. I live 2500 miles from my parents. I cannot stop my mind from going to horrible places. I’m tired. I ache.
I’m kinda done with this shit….
There is an adage that you hear from writers and writing professors that the best way to write is to just write, even so far as writing the word write X amount of times until you finally sort out the static in your head and begin to write something coherent.
Recent events have made me re-think how I communicate on the web and if I really need to participate with everyone else.
When everyone can see it, no one reads it.
When everyone cannot see it, no one reads it.
So why does any of it matter?
So I am going to write.
UPDATE: I have several draft posts from before I stopped posting that I am re-reading, editing and going to re-post. Don’t read into them too much 😉
Need to get some one in here to dust….
Current project in the middle of nowhere USA has me working on a migration and architecture design document. Seeing as I have never done any kind of migration and architecture design, this is a learning experience for me. It’s not the shiny, happy kind of learning experience where one works with someone that has done this before and guides you along. Nope, this is the “Throw you in that section of South African Coastline where the Great White Sharks JUMP OUT OF THE WATER” kind of learning experience.
I am not all alone in this endeavor thankfully, and I do have some guidance. But the folks that are ultimately in charge of this are too busy focusing on the other portion of this project, and are masters pf delegation. I’m doing the best I can, which is all I can do.
Enough bitching though. Basically, I have spent that last few nights staying up late writing portions of the document. I’m getting a little bit sleepy.
Continuing the work to manage my digital presence.
I just stumbled across two posts about Google continuing to “DO ALL THE EVIL”.
The jist of it all is that Google is taking the publicly broadcasted SSID of wireless networks and creating a database to help their location services. Pitching it like they are helping you help yourself, they are also saying that if one does not want to participate they should append their wireless SSID with “_nomap”. It’s all here in this post.
The Lone Sysadmin, someone I follow via RSS had a nice rebuttle to the Google post. Basically, Google should not make it seem like they are doing us a favor and ‘man-up’ about the fact that they are doing this to sell to the highest bidder. I like the points he makes.
It also reminded me of a few things I need to do with my wireless router. First off, I need to stop broadcasting the SSID. Secondly, I might need to look into making the SSID a bit more unique. I may or may not do this, since I won’t be broadcasting. However, a more unique name (or better yet phrase) will make it harder for someone to still randomly connect. Third on the list is to look into securing connections via MAC Address. I know a few folks who do this, but they are in the suburbs, so it makes no sense to me why they do it. It makes more sense for me to do it living in the city. Along those lines, I should look into possibly creating a DMZ so that I can keep some portions secure while at the same time leaving some portions open for visiting friends and or family. Fourth and final on the list is to get some new hardware. The stuff I have is pushing 8 years old. I should probably check the firmware on it as well.
Outside of that, the only other thing I am working on is the decision to delete my FB account. I only ever post links to things I find interesting. And those folks that might find them interesting, I can have them follow me on Twitter. I’m still not sure about this.
I seem to be fighting the situation I am in tooth and nail and not taking it for the opportunities that it is handing me. I think I just hate the fact that I am here doing something I do not want to do SO MUCH, that my mind is looking at every opportunity to impress as anathema. I am sabotaging myself. It is so very strange.
If at first you don’t succeed, fail the same way every year!
Going to start a section of the blog called ‘The Casual Gamer’.
I have been mulling over the idea of writing about the games(video mostly, but interested in some tabletop and card games) I play. I see a casual gamer as the person who plays when they can, as a stress relief or to burn small amounts of free time. There will be the occasional bender as real life allows, yet the casual gamer is far from the stereotype. This is not the child yelling for chocolate milk or the man living in his parent’s basement, covered in Cheetos dust and playing non-stop.
I’ve talked about gaming here before, but it has always been spotty and at times incoherent. There are the posts about what I was playing at the time, half-hearted attempts at reviews, and one or two rants thrown in there.
My hope here is that this new type of post will be different. That is the hope, anyway. The reality of it all is much different, as seen in past grandiose ideas. But what is life without grandiose schemes and ideas that end up falling on their face? Successful….oh yeah….that’s what life is without the falling down part…… <.< >.>
There are also ulterior motives baked into this half-baked idea (it can be called pudding if you want!). If I can stick to it, my writing and communication skills will improve. That is the major benefit I see coming from it. A secondary, and quite possibly awesome outcome, is that a small time gaming site will like ‘the cut of my jib’ and let me do some freelance reviews along the same casual gamer line.
So, the tl;dr version is that I am going to play more games and write about them, land a posh gig writing about them and then build a giant vault in the middle of town which will allow me to swim around in all the monies I will be raking in.
In all likelihood though, this won’t go anywhere. And I’m okay with that.
On a final note…it is not a coincidence that this endeavor falls upon November 1st….the same day that NaBloPoMo kicks off. And yes, I am taking another crack at it. My money says I’ll fail by the 8th
I understand that the squeaky wheel gets the oil, and although it is not my nature, I have made a concerted effort to be involved. However, I’m tired of chasing. I’ve been chasing all my life. It’s time that those out there interested and/or needing me involved come to me.
I understand the consequences of this decision. No one can read my mind (thankfully), so those who do not see me as important enough to have included as it is, will not even notice the change. You can’t win them all, but at some point a line in the sand must be drawn.
I haven’t had a hard life, but at the same time it hasn’t been roses and lollipops either. I am still looking for that place, that one place, where I feel I belong.